within and without the civil strife

to where the mind roams free ......the sirens wailing in an area marked for No noise Violation...the flashing red lights raising the shuddering heart by one more beat per sec..the trampling of hurried rushing feet...the screeching wheels of the trolly cutting through the corridor terrified eyes...the failing sheet of white in its desperate attempt to withstand the onslaught of the colour Red.........Dec 1993 dawn to dusk curfew ..a teenager awaits the arrival of his relatives outside the ICU which has his parents fighting inside for the most valueable yet underrated gift ...life itself..the ability to breathe in and out ....within & without.....

The phone line at the other end goes dead as if the primary note has been muted and the only audible ones are nothing but noise....quite in contrast to the noise cancelling bluetooth device being used to make the call by the 26 year girl who still is yet to win her battle to be a 26 yr old lady..she looks at the blackberry given to her by her work and flashes of the feeling of triumph engulf her exhausted mind when she had proudly told her parents of her achievements and had thought she had arrived........the signature 3 beat beep of a new mesage delivered throttles her world back to swelling watery screen barely decipherable......30th September,2010 11:30 pm Sender:Baba Ma Message: Since you have decided to live life on your own terms i guess u also have the right to choose everyone and everything in your life.. irrespective of what we wish or believe...please do not call us again ...we are losing our peace of mind......WITHOUT you atleast we can rest in peace....

"Anti outsourcing law in the US mooted by the Obama administration blocked by the senate"...a smile swims through the eyes to the lips as they taste the rising aromatic flavours of Darjeeling tea.....this tea is really awesome...this is the hour for India to shine its resurgence reflecting in its indomitable spirit of shrugging off fears of recession .. the world cannot choose to ignore India anymore they cannot do without us ..we are essential for their survival and in our survival lies our opportunities and prosperity..prosperity will elliviate poverty and the evils associated with it .........the world 's our oyester....folding the paper back into its unchanging 3 folds fold ... front page headlines bend round the corner....."Allahabad HC Verdict..........."...the blackberry rings again the vibration rattling the cutlery......"Good morning Chandra wats up" ...earpiece clears its throat in response "jai Shri ram Pankaj ..........

The greatest form of Hypocrisy lies within and convenient oversight ....without

rebirth................

to where the mind roams free ......
to live like kings and die like emperors is what mortals desire deep within the closets of their insecurities reinforced by experiences of ridicule from the world within and snubs without... death of an idea comes not from the rejection of it but from the abandonment of it...how many years have you walked this earth ...how many times have you died in the hands of embarrassment ...and how many times have you been reborn...is rebirth actually so painful as we make it out to be ...is rebirth not the sign of life itself ...does it not epitomise the kicking feeling of being alive and can anyone deny that THAT itself is the biggest adrenalin rush that possibly could be .....going back to school ..studying again....competing again....winning again..losing again...re doing your hair again ...changing your dwelling place again...falling in love again ...are these not signs of rebirth.....re kindling of the youthful buoyant spirit that one so aften mistakes as arrogance of youth......it like learning to unlearn...teenage...the swinging twenties..the steady thirtites and bang you are brought face to face with what you require to make the difference in the last lap ...your youthful optimism ....your ability to start from scratch ..your courage to dissmantle every theory to it basic origins and rework bottom up ......life makes a fool of everyone of us in many ways than one could fanthom...and its lure guile and temptation is such that each one of us is lured back into the game ........to be fooled again ..and again...why do we celebrate one birthday a year if we are reborn every now and then lets celeberate our rebirths trust me evry day will be a party and the hangover ......left to imagination ..to each his own :-)