WYSIWYG

what you see is what you get.......how much of what one sees does one get ....and when it boils down to the mathematics and statistics of it the denominator is always expectations......expectations...mmm.....demure little word.....seemingly insignificant..........inane....frail by its existence ..and yet so hopelessly unachieveable...imagine the plight of a child of not being able to live up to his parenst expectations.....the anger of a girl whose expectations her boyfriend shattered....the plight of a son who as a doctor could do nothing for his dying dad and has to face the look of expectation in his mother's eye......

and when i compare these to mine ...my expectations which i ...like a teller in a bank keep counting n recounting as to which were debited and which were not...it overshadows the credit i have in my relationship...and over powers my senses to the extent that i am blinded by emotions of hurt.....of sacrifice.....of not being recognised...and i find me consoling myself.......never mind ..it takes all kind of people to make this world the world which God created with a purpose and where each man has a part to play......the only question that i shout out to the eternity above... to the vast expanses that lay unconquered in the dark starlit sky above again and again as if i will find an answer and better still a messiah....is ......WHY Me....of all people why me ........i hope to find the answer coz i cannot die without it nor abandon the thought the reason choosing me